Rose Petals and Snowflakes
At the edge of the woods, I call my monkey.
Stand and call, without much hope. It’s not a pretty
woods, not a forest you’d see in a painting
full of repeating tree trunks and slants of light.
It’s a tangled mess, impenetrable.
And it’s winter. Snow lies over the ground
and on the branches of every twig and vine.
It’s been months since Mr. Grim went missing
and I think, “what could a monkey find to eat
out there in winter? There’s nothing.”
But I stand and call, not even loudly, since it seems
so hopeless. Just a plaintive cry, more like a child
calling for her mother, more like I was the one lost
and not the monkey. But then, there he is,
scampering through the woods, leaping up into my arms.
He’s disheveled, hair mussed and full of twigs and snowflakes.
He’s grown. He’s the size of a child, the size I was
at the time I first remember my mother pulling petals
from a faded rose, tossing them high into the air
and letting them fall around me, cascading, twisting
back and forth like pink geese landing on a clear blue pond.
Not tepid pink—fuchsia, hot saturated pink. And remember
how much bluer the skies were then? So deeply, serenely blue.
A blue that could swallow us, and often did.
Not the faded skies the politicians give us now, full of ozone
and acid rain. I walk back toward home carrying Grim
on my hip, his small arms around my neck, his hands
clutching me. We stop to pull tiny rose petals
from tiny white roses and toss up four handfuls. They flutter
down among snowflakes against a sky lost in a blizzard white.
When I wake up and don’t have Grim, I’m confused.
I think I have to hurry home where Mr. Grim is still lost
and rescue him from the woods. It’s a while before I’m awake
enough to realize he’s gone. Grim’s dead; my mother’s dead.
And there are no white roses blooming in this winter’s snow.
Mary Stebbins Taitt
For Margaret and Grim
1st: Saturday, February 03, 2007
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